Yes, that's what sb termed me as. THE KID WITH NO MARKET VALUE. Cause I am the middle child and apparently, deemed as the most useless one. today has really been a very rough day for me. having a mental breakdown at sb's 80th birthday celebration wasn't exactly what i wanted / expected. it just happened. people talk without their brains. they sprout all type of nonsense which affects you. you get hurt. I ended up leaving the goddamn restaurant and ended up walking in the vicinty. as usual, the wuss of me broke down. many things went through my head when I am crying. I wanted someone by my side to share the painful ordeal i was going through. I thought of everybody, and the best candidate seems to be my mum. decided to go back up to the restaurant and get her out for me to talk to her. managed to do so, but things didnt work out. she just asked me what happened, told me to settle down and tell her my problems. Initially, she thought I was injured somewhere or I was drunk. -.- After that, I told her my problems and I bet she thought nothing of it. She doesnt even know the whole situation. The one which I told her about was like only 1/4 of the story. Sometimes, I really want her to have a htht with me, walking beside clarke quay or sth. but as usual, nothing of this sort happens. we come home and i do my work and she does her stuff. end of story. she didnt even get the full story of why i broke down. i really hope she did ask. like really. but obviously, she will just think i cry because i am too stressed from studies. hais, no one truly understands, as usual. rants rants rants. i swear i cried like damn a lot today. fuck.

NIKE ZOOM RIVAL S V HAS ARRIVED.
it arrived 2 days okay, just that i had no time to blog about it. super excited about it. my first item from online shopping. costs $80+ SGD after shipping and all the other crap fees. mom says its super worth it cause my old Turbo Phantom costs like $100+ and it looks so ugly and so heavy. ((: yayyy. hope this spikes will bring me pbs soon. ><

I BOUGHT MY YELLOW BRAZILIANO PRAIA TOO.
bought it w/ reena. cause got offer. 2 pairs for the price of 1. (: chio ttm. reena bought yellow slippers too. hahaha. (: luckily i have lived up to the name of the Yellow Clan. I've got 3 pairs of yellow shoes eh. (slippers, sports shoe, spikes) Heh.



first training in idk howlong. did basic strength. kinda slacked. still havent really recover from my illness. my mother gave strict orders not to train for the 2 weeks. i am defying orders. (: obviously i must start training le luhs. everybody's pia-ing already whereas i am still like stoning. time to turn up at ngee ann poly soon. poop. LA test today was idk-how-to-describe. i totally stunned by both questions. but ultimately i still wrote something. 1.5 pages only. manzx. shoot. tmr got polynomials test ( ._. ) and we are getting back chinese test (!!!). GG for chinese la. i totally screwed the 2 papers up. hope i even get above 30. 

screw my cough + flu. i wanna faster get well lahs. 3 more days to school hols. i can't wait. 1 month of break. w/ trainings 5/6 times a week. sentosa!! 2B!! guitar classes!! CIP!! hw!!

yayy. hello earthlings. ((: i am still alive from level experience. teehee.

yesterday, we did cooking in the morning and chinese opera in the afternoon. better than expected? lets start from the morning. went to the culinary school at tiong bahru. whipped up roti prata and kueh pie tee. you know what, the owner of the culinary school, who is also our chef for the kueh pie tee, said that my kueh pie tee shell is very nice and looks super professional. she may hire me to work for her next time eh! hahaha. then the stupid thing came. when i was cleaning up the mess we made, i accidentally toppled the tray of kueh pie tee shells! so we ended up sweeping up and throwing everything away. My Chio Kueh Pie Tee Shells! so we were given the kueh pie tee fillings for nth. .__. after cooking, went to the cafe next door to eat. the tofu burger tastes weird. the tofu tastes like meat, although its tofu. and its freaking 8 bucks! can you even believe it. we ate such an expensive meal. ._. there were mee siam and desserts too. ((: after lunch, we went tiong bahru market to slack and kill time. the class camwhored there i think. after tiong bahru market, we walked to tiong bahru CC and had the chinese opera. quite cool. not as lame as Y1. this time, we have weapons! muahahhaha. we are gonna perform tmr night. shitzx, i cant rmb the steps already! hope my memory will be refreshed by tmr night and i dont screw! i am like in the gun/qiang (wooden stick/spear) section. there are 2 other sections. the qi (flag) and the dao (knife). hahaha. cool seh.

as for today, amazing racee. (: amazing races have always been my kinda thing. hahaha. love the thrill and all the running about and the need to complete the task. adrenaline is rushing through me again. o.o but, running around chinatown, kampong glam and little indian can be tiring also. sweated like a dog manzx (as much as training). tried a few types of food. met new people. did stupid stuffs (Are you going to die?). although ultimately we didnt manage to win, it definitely brought my team (Mark, Neville, Regina, Meilin, Guchun, Gladys, Verene & Grace) closer. all of us were damn pia la. hahaha. love my team seh. after amazing race, got guitar class. so didnt manage to go for class dinner. guitar class was a disappointment too. i really regret not practising enough. i cant change chords in time. everyone is better than me. i've better buck up now, or else i will just be out of the course by next few lessons. i must really practise everyday!! jyjys!

things to do now/tmr morning

tmr staying overnight in chalet. grped with ryan and jingzhi. hope everything will turn out all right. cant wait to see the lvl camp tee. hahaha.

PS: today's morning assembly was epic. breakfast. study. recess. study. lunch. study. teabreak. study. dinner. study. supper. study. sleep for 2 hours. no, that's too short. 6 hours. breakfast. study. and the whole cycle repeats itself. how can a study camp be possible in dhs? o.o parents will object i think.